I knew as I put that claim about being in-dependance of God out there that he would test me. How come so quickly? Have you found that when you want God to take action in your life, he usually makes you wait to know the answers but when it's an action he calls you to make he acts quickly when you accept it.
Funny. Maybe he is anwering your prayer through your act of contrition and he is leading you to where you asked to be in the first place.
This is my 100th post. Yes I had a slow start but the last couple of months I think I have been really good at blogging. I guess I have a lot to say lately and find writing helps me.
Like right now with my parents being away, having no one to talk to just to tell how my day went I have felt this intense need to write. I think God is using these three weeks as a time to refine me on the inside. I don't like not having anyone to talk to, yes I have my Grandma but it's hard to talk to her because she can't hear.It loses it's emotion when you have to scream. I also tried speaking my woes to Bella but I get the distinct impression that she has no clue what I am saying on the account of the tilted head.
It's very weird to feel so disconnected, yes I am doing the same things in the evenings as I always do but knowing that there is someone out there that wants to know how my day went is very comforting and not having that kind makes the day not as fulfulling. I guess I am really not as independant as I thought I was. I guess I really can't do it all on my own. Honestly, I don't think I want to. I think I need more of God and less of me. Have you ever taken a look at the word "Independance" it's in-dependance, in-dependance of. Thats what I want, I want to be in-dependance of God. I want to relie on God, to lean on him, to be dependant on him. My independance is tied into my dependance on God.
It's just an epiphany that I've had and it has made me think. I guess this silence (among the dog barking) is a time for me to look inwardly and redirect where my strength comes from.
Ok, I think I can make it. Bella has been a zombie all evening. I still take her out on the leash to go to the bathroom but she has been out cold on the couch, laying on her back and snoring. It's a funny sight to see. Yeah, Bella is going to doggie daycare tomorrow and the day after that. I will survive!!
This is for my parents because they are checking my blog while in Italy. Bella misses you a lot and she is saying "Hi." Not sure if you are going to see a puppy in one piece when you get back home Mom and Dad. So I though I would post this for you guys something to remember her by. (No, don't worry I couldn't harm her, I just wish she would grow up and be a Molson already)
I miss you guys too, counting the days till you come back. Only 17 more sleeps!
Yes, to everyone in blogworld I am a Momma's girl and proud of it! (and a daddy's girl, Dad)
My barcade didn't work, had to go chase Bella around the neighborhood again. This is going to be a long long three weeks.
It's going to be a long 3 weeks. I am already exhusted and it's only day 4. Well, Bella and my first work day went off with a bang. I let her out to go pee and somehow the sneaky scoundrel found a hole in the fence and got out of the yard. I saw her running around in the cul-de-sac at 6:00 am in the morning. She was trying to entice the neighbors dog to come out. She stood in the front lawn starring up at the window barking and prancing around. Then when she saw me she was so excited, it was almost like "Leah ,what are you doing here? I am so happy to see."
This morning I was up to her tricks, she wasn't going to fool me, so I went downstairs to the yard with her but that dog ran for the hole in the fence right away and was out of the yard in no time. So, at 7:00 in the morning I walk quickly to go get her. So after work I spent most of my time trying to board the whole in the fence. How come she has to find the dirties, cowebish, spider-filled spot to escape from?
Well, after an half an hour of chasing Bella around the yard because she stole my hammer, I decided to just baracade her from getting to that spot. I have let her out and tested to see if she could get out and she hasn't left the yard yet. Thank God tomorrow is Bella's day to go to Doggie Daycare.
This has put any thoughts of getting a pet to rest in my mind. No, the single life is the life for me. No responsiblities, no worries, free and fancy free, it's a Pirates Life for me! (well not really but it sounded right)
Oh I am sure that there is a Pickles the Fat Hobbit book in here. I would start writing those books because I have a quiet house to do it but I am too busy chasing a puppy.
Hey I want to add my own personal header to my blog but I don't know how. Does anyone know? I have updated to the Beta Blogger.
Well, the next three weeks I am living in a house, with no noisy people below me or above me, no long trecks to take the garbage out and I don't have to go through 3 security doors to get inside the building. But instead I have one 9 month puppy that I have to feed, take for walks and make sure she doesn't get in trouble (ha haa hahhha, like thats not going to happen), one lawn to cut, 4 TV's with full cable (yeahhhhh) and I have to take care of my Grandma but she isn't living with me. Where's my parents you say? Why do I have so much responsibility at such a young age? Because my parents are running around Italy, cheeze those parents are so irresponsible! All I can say is that they better bring me back some Prada something.
Not having my parents around has really opened my eyes, I have realized the day when my parents aren't around I am truley going to be by myself. I have no siblings, my Mom is an only child too, no Aunts and Uncles around. My future is all my responsiblity, I better start a RRSP now so that I can afford buying that shack by the beach when I retire. It's all on my shoulders. Hey maybe I can sell off my Prada shoes that my parents are bringing back from Italy, that will be a healthy start to my retirement fund.
What an amazing morning!!! I was so frustrated because the internet was down in the office so I couldn't do any work. So I was stuck looking out my window but luckily a made-for-tv movie was being filmed outside my window and low behold what would my wondering eyes come across? It was Jason Priestly from Beverly Hills 90210. I couldn't believe it. I knew who it was instantly! It was really exciting. I loved watching 90210 as a teenager. Dilon was my favorite but I loved the good guy Brandon too.
Living in Vancouver you come accustom to having movie sets all over the place, you just resign yourself to the fact that you never see anyone famous but it is really exciting when you see someone.
This just made my day, who cares if the internet is down, I have my own movie set out-side my window with famous people.
Some how that crazy puppy has crept into my heart. I don't know how or when but I love Bella. I love Bella in a different way than Molson (I still miss him and always will). Bella is definately a different puppy than Molson was. Molson was an easy going, happy go lucky puppy that learned quickly. He was confident that he was wanted and much loved so had no reason to be bad but Bella has been a crazy and bad puppy.
She steals food from the counter, chews my favorite flip flops and lays on the flowers but somehow I absolutely love her. I love how she is the biggest clutz (a girl after my own heart or feet). She trips over her big paws when she runs and just does a roll on the ground and gets up and goes. She loves her belly being rubbed and lays spread eagle on her back (it's rather indecent). I love how when on her back is itchy she rolls around on her back growling at herself. She likes to give hugs and all she wants to do is to be with us. I think she a Dennis the Menace of the dog world. She is going to be an amazing dog, I am sure our days are going to be full of crazy antics and hilarious stories.
Well, yesterday I had a beautiful cool green cell phone that I got last year and today I have an ugly blue boy phone. It literally looks like a men's razor. I some how lost my cell phone while I was downtown Vancouver. I feel so disappointed in myself because I use to never loose things. I had to buy new phone because I renewed my contract last year so I couldn't buy a new plan so I bought the basic phone which cost $129 dollars. I know some of you are thinking that I should have waited to look into all my options and when I have saved some money up I should have bought it but I use my cell phone as my phone, I don't have a landline. I felt so helpless last night when I realized I didn't have my cell phone because I couldn't call anyone. I felt so disconnected. I was able to keep my same plan and same cell phone number so thats a blessing but I just can't help but be disappointed in myself.
